A virus spread world wide, so much so that it brought me back home. I’m safe and sound right now, quarantined with my incredible loving family, watching my little stinker pup, Pepito, snooze beside my feet, as I write out my thoughts in between this gap of silence I was somehow blessed to find.
I love the smell of gardenia blooms in spring, a warm cup of coffee on a rainy Sunday morning, and the smell of a freshly cracked book. -Chloé
The beginning of the end—Of a season of course. So in that case, maybe I shouldn’t say an end, but the beginning of a new book. The months prior to reaching a new year were difficult for me. For those that know me, I’m a major over-thinker. When I decide on something I think long and hard on it. I analyze every crevice and possibility. It’s not healthy and I acknowledge that it’s something I have to work on. But of course, just like everything in this life, it doesn’t just happen overnight and in it, is this strange beauty of the nature of it all. The fact that it doesn’t magically change from one day to the next means it’s something that essentially builds up other areas of your life rather than the sole focus of, for example, in this case, “thinking less”.
Anyways, I went through some heart wrenching moments with people I love. I like to keep my private life extremely private especially when it comes to relationships but I’ve gained so much wisdom through these experiences that remaining silent about them would make my writings rather bland. The relationships I’ve established throughout my lifetime thus far is a major reason why I am the way I am.
The characters that are found in each chapter of your life have an effect on you and the stories ending. We all know it. In some way or fashion they open your eyes to see the world from a different lens. They fill you with enlightenment and humility. They constructively build you up and lead you towards discovering your true identity. They invigorate the gifts and skills you never knew were in you, had it not been for the Author’s attention to detail. I’m far beyond thankful to God for putting and continuing to place those people in my life. Even if it’s just for a page in the story.
Last year, I got out of a good relationship. Sounds kinda odd right? Why would someone back out of something that’s good. Neither of us disrespected one another. Neither of us were disloyal. No one did anything essentially wrong. Long distance was something I had always told myself I would never get into but needless to say, I went for it anyway and I still am very apprehensive towards it.
However, what came from it is so beautiful. From it, came far more than I could’ve ever imagined. When you’re a character in the story it’s difficult to understand the scenario. Now the reader…the reader has every point of view with the ability to comprehend and extract the theme, plot and moral of the story. Re-reading these stories from now a readers point of view has given me that clarity. Which then led me to discovering that…
I create when I’m subconsciously stressed out. Sometimes I ask myself why God puts me through certain things in this life but He’s been teaching me more and more that these pressure points in my life have cultivated this urgency to be creative. This creativity then leads to blessing others with my unique gifts, which then pans out into inspiring and motivating other’s decisions and the shaping of their own character which then furthermore creates this contagious domino effect throughout the world. All because of that “horrible experience” that stressed me out.
When I started this blog, wayyy back in 2017 my mission was and still is found in Job 23:10: “But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as pure as gold.” Safe to say, these tests have without a doubt been fulfilling their purpose in shaping me into the woman I am today.
Although I may seem like I have it all together, I don’t understand half the things going on in my life. To be honest, I’m just filled with hope, and trust in the One who holds the Universe in His hand. It’s a trust that I’m actively and consciously choosing on a daily basis. It is a very unnatural thing to do, to Trust that everything will be okay when it all seems to be falling apart but getting into the habit of hearing the right voices and feeding your mind, heart and soul Truth, happens to do the trick overtime.
It hasn’t been an easy race but it’s a race worth running for. My never ending endurance is replenished vertically. His powerful grace calls me to persevere. Found outside of myself and in His perfect character and strength is my hope in enduring; looking into the future with confidence as I am led by Truth.
Hi there, it’s me again!
These past few months have been, to put it simply, reinvigorating. I’ve been getting in tune with different areas in my life, discovering new treasures within, writing until I cant feel my wrist, praying for answers, and being 100% real with myself.
After months of keeping my writing limited to my journals and instagram posts, I felt as though God was pushing me to write a blog post on some (not all) of the most wonderful things He’s taught me since February of this year. In order to update you all, each lesson will be titled according to the month in which it was taught.
Lately, I’ve been incorporating more endurance-based workouts. Running, walking, spinning, jumping rope, etc. Something way out of the norm of what I’ve been used to doing. If you know me, you know that I’ve always been the kind of gal that would head straight to the weight room and ditch the cardio cave. I hated cardio. It would bore me out, not to mention that I felt like I was sweating only to lose muscle mass.
If you were to continue doing what you’re doing everyday from the moment you wake up to the moment you rest your head on that plushy pillow, will you be happy with your life 10 years from now, or even 2 years from now? Are you really using the 24 hours you have been given wisely?
There once was a vineyard owner that had looked for fruit from his fig tree for three years but had found none. The vineyard owner was very disappointed in this tree and was inclined to cutting it down because of its barrenness. However, the compassionate gardener who tends to the vineyard, who waters and fertilizes the trees in order to bring them to their peak of fruitfulness pleads the owner for more time. More time to nourish this tree. To fertilize, water, and care for it so that it may be abundant in fruit. The gracious vineyard owner responds in patience and grants the tree another year of life to produce fruit. (Luke 13)